Update

After much deliberation…I’ve decided to go to the event the company signed me up for.  It’s this Friday.  TOTALLY looking forward to it. do i feel a tad bit guilty?mmhmm, but i’ll get over it.

Went on my third interview today.  It’s not gonna happen with them.  I turned it completely around on her, and started interviewing her.  Remember, i’m a recruiter at heart.  I interview everyone, it’s what I do.  I have interviewed very high level candidates and have learned how to strip their answers of all the extra filler words and get down to what I really need to know, what exactly they have to offer my clients.  This lady did not pass the test.  She tried, but I don’t think she even realized it happened.  The sad thing is, she’s been trying to recruit me for years, not only that, she’s 5 years my senior-she should know better.  That’s a lot in recruiter years.  So at least I know and won’t waste her/my time in the future. 

I have a second interview with the 2nd company I interviewed with.  I’m soooo excited about them.  This interview is happening tomorrow!!!! get excited! 

I’m determined to make a difference in my life.  I will not be that friend who bitches and complains and does nothing to improve their situation.  I am better than that.  I’m back to reading my Vincent Norman Peale (don’t judge me maaan).  I need whatever it takes to whip my attitude into shape.  being all whiny pee pants doesn’t help anyone or anything.  Oh my god, and the excercise helps so much.  I feel efin good. 

Hm, interesting

so as i’m interviewing with different companies with the intent to move on and ditch this joint…I discover that my boss is still investing in me and signing me up for very expensive seminars/courses.

This can’t end well.

At what point do i say something?  And then what do I say?  “Hey, stop spending money on me, i’m ditching you?”  Or, “hey, member how you’ve been assholish and driving me mad for months, yea?  Well, i’m over it so stop investing in me.”

Which is the right way tumblr?

What to wear?

Some days my outfits jump out of my closet with minimal thought. My attitude is right so anything I wear is gonna work. Other days, like today, where my attitude sucks, nothing in my closet feels quite right. I KNOW I need to quit this job. I feel it every minute of every single day. Even weekends. Its the dreaded thought that I keep trying to quiet. Don’t get me wrong, I love my clients, my employees, and my coworkers. Its my bosses make it so hard to even dress for the day. I have been up for over an hour. This isn’t cool. I know I’m supposed to be grateful to even be employed, and I am. I’m glad I can pay my bills, but I almost feel like I’m being held hostage. Feeling like Tim Robbins in Shawshank. God I want out. I do firmly believe that I will have a new job by March. I have another interview tomorrow. *deep breath* I will work on my attitude. I will have a good day.

My profile pic

I went out to drinks and appetizers with a friend who is also connected to me via facebook. While we were talking he made an observation. A couple times during the evening he zoned out while looking over at me, then snapped back to reality. When I asked him what was up he laughed at himself and said that when I listen I look exactly the same as I do in my profile pic. I rest my chin on my hand, prop my elbow on the table. I just felt like mentioning that.

elcarlitos asked: Don't mind me...I tend to keep to myself
That's my impersonation of you, not bad huh?

you forgot

“except of course when i’m being social”

Other than that, yes, GREAT impersonation =)

pepito asked: Hey Chula... What have you been up to? Any new books? Beers you recommend?

Hola Pepito

Let’s see…currently reading BLINK by Malcolm Gladwell.  A fascinating book about snap judgments.  The study of good and bad decision making; the importance in being focused on the details vs having huge amounts of data.

and cerveza,   I love red beer.  that is all

(miss chatting with you)

i want my free pants!

also, i’m with irishtexan…i love that mark sanchez cares about me.

also, i love that tumblr exists

also, lol @ “you’re not you when you’re hungry”

My Love

It was never about me.

It was always about the world, and love, and people, and music.

It was never about me.

It was about your desires, your dreams, your goals.

It was never about me.

It was about your destruction, your pain, your hurt.

It was never about me.

It was always about your daydreams, wishes, aspirations and hopes.

It was never about me.

It was about your boredom, your disappointment, your monotony.

It was never about me.  It was always you.  And you were never about me.

MEAN GIRLS ON TBS!

irishtexan:

how come no one told me about this sooner?

mmhmm, sadly, that’s what i’m watching too